Getting so tired

Canada, July 2005

4^th December, 2007

Not felt good today. SOB, anxious, generally on edge. ND spent the day with me, which helped, she does have a calming influence on me and I do so wish we lived nearer one another. She is having a shit time at the moment and although I am ill, I would just love to be able to be around for her more.

I must write more of my book tonight as Jue is expecting 1000 words by tomorrow*. This is quite useful giving me a goal as I will hopefully reach it and I am so desperate to keep positive, I don’t want to get dragged into a deep hole of depression.

I supposes I am going to have up and down days; this is just a down one. When I feel like this I sometimes wish it was all over, I am just so tired.

* She didn't manage this, but it did give her something to plan for.