Home at last!

Pandy on Republic Day in Mumbai, 2005

30^th October, 2007

Home today! I am really looking forward to it, compared to the last time, I feel we have set everything up much better.*

18:30 – At Jue’s! Feeling very tired. I guess it is just the emotion and physical movement in getting home. RP came and helped me to wash and stayed with me until I got to Jue’s. I can see how much he loves me, I didn’t ever necessarily doubt it, but I am surprised at the depth of how much he does miss me. My mum and dad have also been able to see this too, which I am glad about, as I hope they will be able to meet up and talk and laugh about me!!

Had a hospital bed delivered, which I am glad about, as it will mean I will get a much better night’s sleep and as I deteriorate we all ready have it sorted! Ashley and Barnie have had good fun pressing all the buttons. I thought it might look a bit clinical in the room but it doesn’t.

Tired, going to get to bed early, though by the time I have washed and changed it will be late anyway.

Glad to be here, surrounded by my stuff.

*Andrea is referring to leaving Isobel Hospice in Welwyn and coming to mine, but after a week she and I both got scared and pain control was not good (she was either in pain, scared of being in pain, or practically comatosed on diamorphine shots. Either way, we needed help or we might have bumped her off early by accident - oops), so she was admitted to the local hospice (St John’s) to sort out the pain relief and make the room she was returning to more suitable with the right equipment. I felt such a failure, after only a week, she was back in the hospice, but both of us were determined to make it work this time.