Being pampered

4^th November, 2007

NJ came round this morning and helped me wash and dress, and most importantly smother me in cream!! My friends helping me in this way is the best thing they can do for me, although I have to admit it is an odd feeling at first getting undressed and asking them to do intimate things. BUT, I don’t dwell on it and hope by being as natural as possible it helps put them at their ease. NJ has made me homemade carrot and lentil soup, what a star! I am certainly getting loads of pampering in.

NJ does find it hard when I talk to her directly about dying, and I am truly sorry for upsetting you, hon, but this is my way of coping with my cancer. I talk about it to make it real, and to make sure I have spoken to all of you about your fantastic friendships and love for me.

Having yet another HOT FLUSH! Bloody awful. I opened the patio door and stood just smelling the Autumn air and listening to the last few birds going to sleep. I must start being a bit more organised in what projects I am going to do. I think I might print off some photos and get some contemporary frames, to give as Christmas presents.

Oops! Went a bit off topic there. What I wanted to say was how I love the smell of the fresh air and just ‘being’. I find myself wondering how does the world carry on in my absence? Of course it does, but it is such a weird sensation, knowing that life and everything in mine will go on as before – perhaps you will be pleased, those of you who I have nagged or been bossy too!!*

*Andrea bossy? Never ;)